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Moms- Seriously though. Some days I find myself in this very, sometimes really creepy calm composure. I will walk around just do stuff. Stuff I mean like fold clothes, make dinner, cleans kids room. I tend to get a lot of stuff done with not a lot of talking. I say this in my peace and serenity times inside my own mind! Well, WELL, outside my mind is terror! My kids are fighting, screaming, nit picking at each other. Youngest daughter is hitting the oldest. The oldest is whining she has a boo boo. It just never ends! Sometimes it boggles my mind how my youngest 3 year old girl can pick on my 5 year old girl so much! Is this what I have to look forward to in teen years? IS IT? If so please sign me up early for a reserved place in the loony bin! During these crazy, nut house house days! The days where it seems the nut house is actually my own house! Well, I walk around cool as a cucumber just taking it in all in, all into some subconscious part of my brain that hides things from me in the future. You know, That feeling you get when your having a baby and it’s just the worst, most painful thing ever!! YES, That feeling you swear you would never forget, screaming you never want kids again. Then a few months later you find yourself thinking, Ah, that wasn’t so bad. I think I’ll do it again! Well that part of the brain can just buzz off! That part ONLY likes to remind you of all the horrible, crazy, most special times in your life WHEN it’s kinda too late to turn back.
Well my “zombie” days I will walk around just being quiet and collective. Suppressing all this crazyness into that spot in my mind. It’s fine because the kids are just kids. Some days, admit it, you want to go grab a box of cupcakes, coffee, ice cream , lap top with movies, and just turn the lights out in the bathroom and pretend your taking one long massive….. Well you get my drift. Well while my kids may be ridiculously crazy and somehow end up having a bottomless stomach and always staving, begging for food like haven’t eaten in days. I find joy in watching them argue over such trivial things. I look at them like, really? Your mad over that!! This whole day I am just trucking along in my calm, zombie space. The girls fight and the baby cries and my way of coping when I just need a break but don’t have that option to just get up and go to that dark bathroom with my treats, I zombiefy! Eventually They all calm down, the baby falls asleep and all I can think about it how much I love them and am thankful for them. I am thankful they can fight and argue. I am thankful they can drive me crazy. If I did not have them to do all this stuff, who would I be? I am who I am because of my kids.
I love them to the moon, the pickle, back to the moon, and for infinity. Their job is to be themselves. Thats what they are doing while driving me into zombie mode. They learn, I correct, and we move on. We give lots of huge and kisses and everyone of them is cherished. I try to teach my kids to be accepting of everyone and to love everyone. In order to do that, they are and will have to accept themselves. That is not always easy to do, I should know. I want them to grow up and know it’s ok to be them. If I were to contanstly nit pick at them and correct them time and time again and not figure out how to work small things out themselves. They would grow up and feel they were never right. They can accomplish whatever they want! They just have to know they can and be accepting of themselves. Trying to be perfect or someone else never ends well. While they fight with each other and get on each others nerves, they know in their heart, we are always there for each other. While I am sure there will be plenty zombiefy days, I know in that deep dark place or hidden treasures in my mind, I cherish it in some way. If they were not here, I would miss it all!
I encourage you to just sit back and watch your kids fight one day, as long as no crazy beating up the other sibling is involved. All thought not sure if you can make that an exception for boys? Well, just watch them, It makes me chuckle sometimes. They fight over the smallest things. When I can find a positive moment in a not so great one, it lightens the mood. Next thing you know, your all laughing and no one even knows what they were fighting about. Just that something horrifically funny is funny, even if we are not sure what that it. Then at the end of the day to say good night and tuck into bed. You just pray that you can have a crazy, rumbustious day the next. Thats because your life would just be boring without your kids. As much as us moms have hair pulling days and tears. We all love our kids and no matter what would never trade them in for anything other then themselves.
Do you have a state of calmness, what is it? Where does it take you? What is it that your cherish about yours kids?
Priscilla,
Eloquently and beautifully put! How to live in the moment and go within!! You should write a sequel to the Tao Te Ching! Lao Tsu would come to learn what modern day women/mothers are truly about! Great lesson! It reveals your true depth!
Mine are grown up now. Your article is funny because it’s true. I’ve been in zombie mode a few times myself.